December doesn’t start off well to me. Everything has gone bad and sour. Dealing with too many problems gets me out of mind, lost, angry, insecure, worried and else. The anger that comes within me, turns into the anger of December.
If asked, she would say the thing that leads her into the fantasies is probably the timetable of “plans”. Sometimes she sticks to it, sometimes she does not. Some plans turn out well, some do not even start.
It’s been 3 months, do you still remember me? Well, I still update my facebook page every now and then but I get too lazy to update this very personal blog of mine. But hey, here I am again, writing randomly just to share my feelings with you all.
(c: Nik Macmilan)
She thought it would be okay, but no, nothing was okay at all. She felt empty, as if her heart was lacking of something undefined. She got upset, but she didn’t know why. She started to hate people, as it they hurt her so badly. The sky is void of stars, so is her heart.
People always say that I am shy and introverted. Well, I am not a sociable, easy-going person that everyone likes to hang out with. Instead, I look dull and boring on the outside. That causes me lots of problems and now I wonder, should I act like an extrovert?Read More »
It is a great feeling, logging in my blog and truly writing something meaningful. The past few months did nothing but left me with a feeling of giving up on writing, which led to a temporary pause of updates. Even after publishing my personal blog on my page, I still do not want to write anything. But here I am now, typing down these words to recall all the flows of thought in my head from the beginning till the end.
This must be the most terrible thing that happened to me since I came to Canada. Right after the happy post on the 28th, on the next day, I lost all of the money I had earned for the past 2 months. It was painful, because my guard was taken down and I had the thought that it was safe in Canada. Until my money was stolen, I learned my very first “international” lesson in this country, “Trust is such an expensive thing I cannot afford.”Read More »
I’m back, after a few weeks being miserable and depressed. During the last weeks, I tended to keep myself at peace and think less of negativity. It works! I feel much better now. But hey, do you have any idea about the title of this post? Read More »
This is just a spontaneous post, since I am so overwhelmed with all the school work as well as my inner swigging, mixed thoughts at the moment and I want to write something. The shadow, the shadow that is covering me, makes me mad. But at the same time, I could not do, or you can say, I do not dare, step out of it and shine myself.Read More »
Ding dong! The most wonderful time of the year has finally come. It’s December now! I cannot hide my joy and excitement since it has always been my favourite month of the year!